been thinking..

[poet]

so lately ive been feeling down....been thinking alot like man why cant i be justin bieber or some celebrity like life seems so ridicliousy easy for them like they have girls and the money... o and not to mention a hot ass girlfriend thats in my sig...sigh i wish i was like this..

but im still great for my life like im just some normal kid with internet like.. imagine if you where born in africa with nothing to eat all day...

[Next In Line]

I don't understand....even if I was born in African I'd still be a normal person.

[poet]

I don't understand....even if I was born in African I'd still be a normal person.

your right you would be but with no internet or food ;S..

basically was saying im happy who i am just wondering what it would be like 2 be a celeb..:O

[Cal]

Oh to be human, no ones ever 100% satisfied its not just u mate

[Tris]

'Life is what you make of it'

[Dan| High Rating]

yea m8 i get what u mean but bieber isn't a great example he must feel sometimes he wishes he was some1 else to avoid all the hate, despite his gf ;). But at the end of the day once u realise you are what u make yourself, you stop worrying what others are doing and focus on your own life and ambitions

[gfdgfd]

its funny because no1 realises he's trolling

[Adam|Spakka]

chin up

[DeltaPapa]

Im happy i aint a african.

And happy i aint beiber as life wud be shit. getting bullied, being told where u gotta be all the time. cnt go toilet urself

I am who i am.. it is what it is

[Bud Select]

ive had random fuck mood swings like that also.. hmm..

[Smush]

Then become a better person. PERIOD.

[Eric]

'Life is what you make of it'

you like to see homo's naked? that's cool man, whatever you're into..

hahah sorry, couldn't help myself, mr. deed's was such a great movie..

edit: and back OT, listen man, it could ALWAYS be worse just like you said in your original post.. i've struggled with depression/anxiety for YEARS which spiraled down into addiction and more depression. then i thought i'd make everything "better" with a change of scenery and packed up my life and moved 2000 miles from everyone i know and love to start a new life.. its been a year and a half and all i've thought about is moving back, so i said fuck it, life is too short trying to chase an ultimate happiness, when i had happiness right in front of my face the entire time and couldn't see it. 

during my year and a half out in iowa (thats where i moved to) i found out that i have a heart condition that people only get when their typically in their final stages of life. its called something like an "upper proctorial myopathy" or something like that. so i've been dealing with that for the last 9 months. i decided to go in to see my cardiologist just a few days ago for a routine check up before i moved back, and he had me do an EKG. the results came back "inconclusive" but he thinks my condition spread down into the lower portion of my heart as-well. so he ordered me to wear a monitor 24 hours a day for the next 30 days (i can only remove it when i shower) and to completely stop taking my meds(for my heart), which is the ONLY thing that had been making me feel better (health wise). i've worn it before and my skin has an allergic reaction to the adhesive on the connector pads, i still have big nasty circle scars on my chest and stomach from the last time. so once again i have to go through all of this shit for a month, just for him to tell me that i'm going to need either a pace-maker, or some type of open heart surgery.

oh and by the way, i'm only 22 years old..

but i look at all these bad things in my life, and while it does get me down on occasion, i always take a step back and try to put things in perspective. i currently have the best and most supportive girl friend in the world, (if anyone trys to argue that fact and say they do, they can SmD) i have love from my friends and my family thats unconditional. and when it comes right down to it, no matter what happens in my life, i know i'm happy.

/story

[poet]

'Life is what you make of it'

you like to see homo's naked? that's cool man, whatever you're into..

hahah sorry, couldn't help myself, mr. deed's was such a great movie..

edit: and back OT, listen man, it could ALWAYS be worse just like you said in your original post.. i've struggled with depression/anxiety for YEARS which spiraled down into addiction and more depression. then i thought i'd make everything "better" with a change of scenery and packed up my life and moved 2000 miles from everyone i know and love to start a new life.. its been a year and a half and all i've thought about is moving back, so i said fuck it, life is too short trying to chase an ultimate happiness, when i had happiness right in front of my face the entire time and couldn't see it. 

during my year and a half out in iowa (thats where i moved to) i found out that i have a heart condition that people only get when their typically in their final stages of life. its called something like an "upper proctorial myopathy" or something like that. so i've been dealing with that for the last 9 months. i decided to go in to see my cardiologist just a few days ago for a routine check up before i moved back, and he had me do an EKG. the results came back "inconclusive" but he thinks my condition spread down into the lower portion of my heart as-well. so he ordered me to wear a monitor 24 hours a day for the next 30 days (i can only remove it when i shower) and to completely stop taking my meds(for my heart), which is the ONLY thing that had been making me feel better (health wise). i've worn it before and my skin has an allergic reaction to the adhesive on the connector pads, i still have big nasty circle scars on my chest and stomach from the last time. so once again i have to go through all of this shit for a month, just for him to tell me that i'm going to need either a pace-maker, or some type of open heart surgery.

oh and by the way, i'm only 22 years old..

but i look at all these bad things in my life, and while it does get me down on occasion, i always take a step back and try to put things in perspective. i currently have the best and most supportive girl friend in the world, (if anyone trys to argue that fact and say they do, they can SmD) i have love from my friends and my family thats unconditional. and when it comes right down to it, no matter what happens in my life, i know i'm happy.

/story

wow youve been through propa alot..thanks for the post kinda get another feeling now

but yea like in never say never justin bieber looks so tired of his life.. like hes freaking on the road 24/7 and hes so tired and his throat is so ill.

[Swag]

Nobody's perfect like Cal said. Here's a song to set the mood for you.

q2UX2k_IpyM

[FearMy Def]

if i was a ceb

i'd sleep, scape and fap

[cody]

Didn't usher that black knee grow molest justin beiber then his parents were like DEN MAKE HIM FAMOUZ OR I TELL ON U.

dvifss?DFR

[Env]

This is what happens when you let pre-teens into the clan